The Shrinking Bladder


  • What a week! I've felt like the last several have flown by and suddenly I find myself past the half way point of pregnancy. There's no mistaking the bump I'm carrying around as a baby, we've got our hospital tour scheduled, and the reality of having a third family member joining us soon is REAL.

    I've been feeling her move strongly about every other day now, and when she wants to dance, boy does she. Wednesday morning, before our 20 week doctor's appointment, I had a big bowl of Frosted Mini Wheats and a cup of coffee. She was so powerful that I laid a hand on my stomach and was immediately delivered a kick to the palm! I ran upstairs to wake Daniel, caught my breath for a minute (the lungs are getting squished, okay?), and then made him put his hand in the same spot. Within 10 seconds, he got a kick, too. I was so glad he got to feel her finally! Now that she is interacting and moving with such force that I can occasionally share her with others, I feel a lot more connected with her. I finally have that "I cannot WAIT to meet you!" feeling.

    Our 20 week appointment went extremely well and Frankie barely had a moment to sit still for the ultrasound technician. She sat with her hands back behind her head, kicking the crud out of me the whole time. She even threw up a few peace signs/live long and prospers/WESTSIDE! hand gestures for us as we watched her flail her little self all over. The technician told us she was "one sassy b", showing off her lady bits without a care in the world and kicking the wand every opportunity she got. Everything with me is measuring perfectly, and the doctor had no concerns about my upcoming trips or about how she is developing. I'm sad that this could potentially be my last ultrasound with the doctor, but I'm considering scheduling a private 3D ultrasound in November or December so that I can see those cheeks, now that she's plumping up.

    How far along? 20 weeks
    Maternity clothes? I'm not fitting in anything else any time soon.
    Stretch Marks? No
    Bladder Watch: Even when I think maybe I don't need to pee, I do.
    Sleep? Still having weird dreams, but most of them surround food these days. One particularly good dream involved me putting butter on a warm cornbread muffin. I woke up before I could eat it. 
    Best moment(s) this week: Seeing Frankie again. Hard to believe the next time I see her may be when she's earthside.
    Miss Anything? Sleeping on my stomach, sneezing without it hurting.
    Movement: Much stronger some days! There is such a strong difference from last week to this week, I actually enjoy her moving much more now. 
    Food Cravings: I keep saying Mexican food, but can we be honest? Its the salsa and sour cream. The rest is all just vessels for the salsa and sour cream. 
    Anything making you queasy or sick: Not so much
    Gender: Confirmed girl
    Labor Signs: No
    Pregnancy Symptoms: My uterus/ligament pain is still at it, and I did experience some night time heartburn this week. 
    Belly Button in or out? Still in
    Rings on or off? On, with the exception of the Jags game Sunday. The heat and the salted pretzel I ate meant those suckers had to come off.
    Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy! I made it my goal to go out and enjoy things more this week, rather than sulk over pregnancy changes, and I think it worked. I'm feeling much better than I have been the last few weeks. I also took the step to reach out to a professional counselor and we're going to start chatting once a week, just to make sure things continue to improve and I don't find myself in a darker place. Depression during pregnancy and postpartum is NOTHING to toy with.
    Looking forward to: OCTOBER! My favorite month of the year is finally upon us. Between a trip to Chicago, my birthday, and Halloween, October will be a blast. I've been waiting pretty much my entire life to be pregnant on Halloween, so I'm SO EXCITED!


    WESTSIDE!

    Here she is, kicking herself in the face.

    The 2.5 seconds her feet were still

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    I'm not really sure what my expectations of pregnancy would be, but right now my body is definitely confusing me. Things are changing... rapidly... and I wasn't prepared to come face to face with how attached to my appearance I actually am. The rapid changes have become kind of a weird little joke. Every new symptom/oddity that happens, I google "second trimester" and enter the first letter of whatever it is that's happened to see if its in the top 5 search results. It always is. This is still INFINITELY better than the intense illness and exhaustion of the first trimester, but I've got an itchy/bumpy scalp, swollen feet, an incredibly sore pelvis, splotchy skin, broken blood vessels on my rib cage, sore/loose teeth, and that's just the beginning. I feel like what little waist I have is disappearing too fast and my breasts are already looking... well... sad. ALREADY. I think I expected to feel a little more in awe of what was happening, rather than the slight mourning I kind of feel right now. 

    While I've been extremely close to my girlfriends during their pregnancies, there are still some things that you just don't know about/can't prepare for until its you. I'm ready to feel that pregnancy glow, and some days are better than others. But I'm a lot less glow-y and a lot more "HOLY CRAP WHAT IS THAT?!". Harder still is explaining this to others without sounding like an awful person, or without the "just-you-wait!" comments. If I don't immediately burst into exaltations about how glorious growing a human is, well, I'm deemed ungrateful or naive. A lot of pregnant women feel pressure to embrace this moment as beautiful and to love their bodies for what its creating (it is and I do). I'm EXTREMELY grateful for my daughter. But, dang. I do also miss my normal body. A lot. And that's also okay.

    How far along? 19 weeks
    Maternity clothes? I really need it to be acceptable "leggings as pants" season NOW.
    Stretch Marks? No
    Bladder Watch: I think I'm getting used to the routine.
    Sleep? The new fun game is "how to change positions without hurting my uterus"... I'm getting better, but I didn't do so well my first few nights.
    Best moment(s) this week: Can I be honest? I'm not really sure there was one. It wasn't a bad week, but I'm just rolling along, trying not to look down too much while undressed. 
    Miss Anything? See all above.
    Movement: I wish she'd move around more, but it is definitely stronger when she does. Once a day for about 10 minutes, I can feel her and I'm hopeful she won't stop. I'll bet most of her moving is done while I'm asleep still.
    Food Cravings: Mexican food again. I want re-fried beans and lettuce and (La Mexicana) salsa and sour cream. Cereal, carbs, and sweets still, too.
    Anything making you queasy or sick: Unfortunately, my nausea seems to be returning a little. Meat (especially when being prepared around me), Asian cuisine, and heavily seasoned food in general is making me dry heave.
    Gender: Girl
    Labor Signs: No
    Pregnancy Symptoms: Hip/round ligament pain and all the lovely physical changes discussed above.
    Belly Button in or out? In
    Rings on or off? On, but the feet swelling gives me a hint of what's to come...
    Happy or Moody most of the time: Both. I'm content, but I cry a lot these days. At least once a day, really. I'm not normally much of a crier (unless PMSing or drinking too much wine), so this is foreign territory for me. I cry listening to music, while petting my dogs, while holding other babies, while texting my mom, while on walks, while watching comedies and crime documentaries. I just cry. All. the. time. Help.
    Looking forward to: Our 20 week ultrasound next week. I feel like I haven't seen her in ages and I can't wait to see how she has changed! I also would just like to double check she's still a she... as silly as that seems.
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    Its official! We have a kicker! It started on Tuesday, with what I can only describe as a tap on your shoulder... but from the inside. I was sitting at my desk, legs crossed and leaned forward. I guess that was squishing her a little, so she decided to let me know. At first, I didn't really register what it was. But then it happened two more times quickly after and I sat up and uncrossed my legs. Heard, baby girl! No more squishing!

    I've felt it a few more times since and its pretty incredible. And also a little gross. I'll be honest, the first few days it made me sick afterwards. I'm a pretty squeamish person, so feeling something move that strongly inside of me made me get the heebie jeebies a little. However, it is still just about the coolest thing I've ever experienced and so I'll take the brief bouts of nausea.

    How far along? 18 weeks
    Maternity clothes? Yes, and feeling like I'm in a serious rut with them.
    Stretch Marks? Not yet
    Bladder Watch: I want to say it couldn't possibly get worse, but I know well and good that it will get worse.
    Sleep? Touch and go.
    Best moment(s) this week: Hard to pick one this week. Between feeling her kick, Second Sunday in Klutho Park, a Jags win, getting started in the nursery (more below), and spending time gardening and playing soccer with Harrison, it was a fantastic week/weekend.
    Miss Anything? My clothes. I'm feeling EXTREMELY limited/sad and I don't want to spend a bunch of money buying clothes I'll only be wearing for the next half a year. I think I'm going to have to bite the bullet and buy more jeans, at minimum.
    Movement: Still a night time wiggler, and now an occasional kicker!
    Food Cravings: I feel like things are leveling out a bit. I'm much more content with eating vegetables and proteins than I have been. I mean, I am still eating a handful or two of M&Ms a day, though.
    Anything making you queasy or sick: We had Trader Joe's Lobster Ravioli for dinner and it really did not sit well with me. Meat in general is starting to get to me again, too.
    Gender: Homegirl
    Labor Signs: None
    Pregnancy Symptoms: I randomly cried at ABSOLUTELY NOTHING several times this week. I'm not kidding, absolutely nothing. Like literally, just start leaking tears with zero rhyme or reason. What even? Also, my stomach and lower abdomen are hurting a lot more often lately. Not chocking considering the amount I'm growing.
    Belly Button in or out? In, but getting more shallow.
    Rings on or off? On
    Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy, other than when I have to pick out an outfit for going out in public.
    Looking forward to: The crib! Daniel will be starting on it soon and I'm so excited.

    Daniel moved the dresser/changing station into Frankie's room this weekend and I am SO in love. I still can't believe the transformation. We bought the dresser from neighbors for $40 bucks. Daniel managed to get all the paint off and refinish the wood underneath. A fresh coat of white paint on the drawer fronts, some hard work on the hardware, and voila. Its gorgeous!

    Once the dresser was in, my sister came over and helped me start organizing the room. All my macrame materials and several baby hand-me-downs were literally just thrown in the room without rhyme or reason. She helped me start sorting things out and clearing areas in the room and now I'm so inspired to keep going.
    Before

    After!

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    I'm not sure WHAT is going on with time lately, but it feels like I blink and I'm writing another one of these posts. Wasn't I JUST 14 weeks? Didn't I JUST find out she's a girl? But no, we're nearing the end of week 17 and I feel like time is slipping through my fingers. How is it already September? How am I this big already?

    So far, I LOVE this part of pregnancy. Can I be this pregnant forever? I'm about 5 lbs up from my pre-pregnancy weight and enjoying ALL the food. The bump is still manageable, I can feel her wiggling away, and we're planning her baby shower. Everyone's right... the second trimester really is the jam. I even REALLY enjoy people touching my belly (something I NEVER thought I'd say)! I think the biggest thing I feel these days is anxiety. Realizing I'm four and a half months pregnant this morning kind of shook me. Many of my friends didn't make it the full 40 weeks, which reminds me that her arrival may be sooner than that. How is it possible to feel so unprepared for having a baby after trying to have one for so long?

    How far along? 17 weeks 
    Maternity clothes? After trying on all my pre-pregnancy football shirts and realizing they are now crop tops, I bit the bullet and put away all my pre-pregnancy clothes. Maternity wear it is from here on out!
    Stretch Marks? No.
    Bladder Watch: I feel like I never stop peeing.
    Sleep? Not so great. I'm usually awake from 3 am until right before my alarm sounds at 6.
    Best moment(s) this week: Getting started on the nursery furniture! Daniel is refinishing a dresser we found second hand and it should make its way into the nursery this weekend. The crib will follow soon after. I'm so excited to see that room come together at last. 
    Miss Anything? Full nights of sleep. Anxiety, cramping, and a small bladder are not making for easy nights.
    Movement: At night, for sure.Thursday night, I thought I had to be imagining it, she was so active. But no, homegirl was just dancing away in there. I'm anxious to feel strong kicks, but I'm happy with this progress so far! I can't wait for everyone else to be able to feel her.
    Food Cravings: Sweets. I want all the sweets. It got so bad one day that I just smeared an Eggo waffle with Nutella because there were no other sweets in the house. I literally had four cookies at a three-year-old's birthday party and kept playing it off like I was bringing a cookie to one of the kids..... 
    Anything making you queasy or sick: No (praise!)
    Gender: I bought some adorable pink clothes, despite my original protests.
    Labor Signs: No
    Pregnancy Symptoms: BAD lightning crotch. Ow ow ow. Leg/hip cramps and pain in the evenings and all night.
    Belly Button in or out? In
    Rings on or off? On
    Happy or Moody most of the time: Pretty hormonal this week. I can be stoked and laughing until my stomach hurts one minute, and then anxious and grumpy the next. Which is sort of normal for me, but this is more exaggerated.
    Looking forward to: Cleaning out the junk that's piled up in the nursery and getting started with the decorating! Maybe nesting has begun?
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    I'm Sandy and this is my blog about my first pregnancy with ivf.

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