Happy Shark Week! The Russo side of the fam threw a really fun Shark Week party on Sunday afternoon, complete with specialty drinks, snacks, and trivia! I only made it until 7:30 pm because I'm a big sleepy baby now, but we had such a good time!
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| Happy Shark Week! |
In other news this week, pregnancy emotions are real. I'm doing my best to try and recognize when my hormones are getting away from me, but it is seriously unnerving to feel like you have zero control over your emotions. I'm dealing with a lot of insecurity and anxiety about my changing body, my ability to financially support a baby, how I'm going to balance my career and my family, and also kind of feeling like a failure of a wife/friend/human these days because my mind is just kind of 100% set on baby mode. I'm forgetful and lazy and just kind of in a cloud.
It's difficult to muddle through the emotional minefield and try and figure out the root causes of what is making me snap or get upset, and to try and talk about them rationally. Pregnancy is not for the rational, apparently. I mean, I was literally angry for a full day early this week because I bought the wrong salsa at a quick run to the grocery store. What I was REALLY upset about was that I no longer have the energy to keep up with the house and the chores/errands the way I used to and that I feel like my house is going to shit because of it (and also, I really wanted the right salsa), and I'm COMPLETELY overwhelmed and need help, but I didn't know how to communicate it. Thus, The Great Salsa Breakdown Incident of 2018.
How far along? 11 weeks
IVF Medications? THIS IS MY LAST WEEK! Wahoo!
Maternity clothes? For sure. I can wear plenty of my loose-fitting items, but why would I? I'd rather wear all these cute new dresses and comfy maternity jeans!
Stretch marks? Linea negra is here, but all other lines are staying away for now.
Bladder Watch: So thirsty at night means so many late night pee breaks.
Bladder Watch: So thirsty at night means so many late night pee breaks.
Sleep: In the lyrics of Jawbreaker,
"If you could hear the dreams I've had, my dear
They would give you nightmares for a week."
"If you could hear the dreams I've had, my dear
They would give you nightmares for a week."
Best moment(s) this week: Having an appetite again! It's still tricky to be hungry all the time, but also still very picky about what I'm hungry for, but DANG. I'm so happy to not have to force myself to eat.
Miss Anything? This is sad, and I promise its not really that big of a deal.... but I really miss my self confidence. I feel physically exhausted and weird, and like I'm getting very wide, even though I have gained ZERO weight. My butt is still a mess from the shots (not that it was ever my best feature, but still). I just feel gross and I miss having the energy and confidence to put effort into my appearance and style my hair/put on make up and stuff.
Movement: None yet.
Food cravings: Salsa! One specific kind... Mild La Mexicana from the produce section at Publix. No others will do. I've eaten two and a half tubs in less than a week, usually in one sitting. Its gross.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Not so much, which is SO nice! Nausea is rare but still usually involves green things on my plate.
Gender: Early anatomy ultrasound appointment set for August 19th!
Gender: Early anatomy ultrasound appointment set for August 19th!
Labor Signs: None.
Pregnancy Symptoms: Very painful breasts/nipples. I often feel like there is a billiard ball inside my left breast. Hungry pretty much always, gas, mood swings, insomnia, and round ligament pain if I sneeze or cough.
IVF Medication Symptoms: This is the last week of those damn suppositories and I cannot even tell you how happy this makes me/my body. I'll spare you the gory details.
IVF Medication Symptoms: This is the last week of those damn suppositories and I cannot even tell you how happy this makes me/my body. I'll spare you the gory details.
Belly Button in or out? In.
Rings on or off? On, which is shocking considering the amount of chips and salsa I've eaten...
Happy or Moody most of the time: Mostly happy, but definitely both. The emotional roller coaster is real.
Looking forward to: Our first trimester screening next week! I feel like I haven't seen the baby in forever!
La Mexicana salsa is LIFE! 💗
La Mexicana salsa is LIFE! 💗
